Some of you have been asking if there’s been any change in my legal situation lately. To put it short – no. To put it long, the man I’ve been separated from for 5 years now is still avoiding being served. And this continues to prevent me from moving back to Florida, “home,” as a friend put it, and back to the man I love.
Some of you know my love story, but there are still times I want to shout it from the rooftops how happy I am that my love came looking for me twenty years after we broke up the first time. My parents tried their hardest to keep him from me, and even though I won’t say that’s why we broke up, it certainly didn’t provide any incentive for us to try to stay together. Besides, I know that we wouldn’t be together today if we would have stayed together then. I feel now I can balance my grown-up responsibilities with the nearly overwhelming urge to spend every moment in his arms.
Today, there is someone else who seems to feel as entitled to run my life as they did, keeping us apart. When this person seems to lack the most control over his own life, he reaches out to try to control mine, like the dog he kicks when he’s had a bad day. And although I removed myself from his physical grasp five years ago, because we conceived a child together, I’m still legally tethered to him. He is the only reason I am not back in Florida this very moment.
I have gotten very depressed at the situation recently, but pulled myself back up. I’ve also contemplated a few bizarre schemes to try to move to Florida with my children before I actually make it to court one of these days. But I’m ok. He can keep me from him for now, but I won’t let the sadness my ex is trying to create overshadow the joy I get thinking of holding my lover’s hand, which seems to light up the world around me. The smile I get just hearing his voice, his laugh.
And baby, just know that you are so worth the wait.
